"To know that you and the one you love are on the same level of feeling for each other, without the look of the eyes and the touch of the flesh."

After a period of being by himself in captivity, Terry Anderson writes in Den of Lions that he got a roommate, a Frenchman, who was soon released to freedom. Madeleine went to Paris to meet him. He told her the same thing that others told her when they were released: of Terry's love for her, that he has never ceased thinking of her. "The joy that these words can give a woman is extraordinary. To know that you and the one you love are on the same level of feeling for each other, without the look of the eyes and the touch of the flesh. My love for him grew deeper every day!"

Madeleine had maintained her refusal to talk with the media for over three years, because she would not give the kidnappers "the satisfaction of seeing me plead." But, after talking to the Frenchman, she decided to tape a message to send to President Reagan. "With Sulome on my lap, I wanted the president to see the family that Terry had left behind. The daughter who was growing up without her father. The loneliness that surrounded us. I wanted the president to know that the arms-for-hostages deal with Iran had prolonged Terry's captivity, and that he should do something about it now, before anything happened to Terry."

On July 3, 1988 the US Navy cruiser Vincennes shot down an Iranian commercial jet, killing 290 Iranian civilians. There was no reaction from the Lebanese kidnappers, which led Madeleine to believe things weren't cozy between the Iranians and their Lebanese allies. Nevertheless, "fear of mistakes by friends was as great as fear of the captives." They were "completely dependent on other people's actions and reactions." She later realized she was thinking illogically when she made the tape for President Reagan, "because America was dealing with people who were unspeakably evil, and no deal would change that fact."

However, Madel;eine now saw a new pain, the sadness in her daughter's eyes as she discovered her friends and daddys who were in their lives. That made Madeleine "determined to build a shield to protect my daughter from her father's kidnappers, not allowing them to hurt her by keeping him captive."