I hope this isn't you

Dr. Joy Bliss writes at Maggie's Farm,

A good, personal description of one form of what we put under the umbrella label of "depression":

Having anxiety & depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends, but hate socializing. It's wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It's caring about everything, then caring about nothing. It's feeling everything at once, then feeling paralyzingly numb.